Lately I feel like God has been closing a lot of doors. I know it's for the best, and I fully trust him. But right now, it feels like I'm in the lobby/waiting room. Just waiting for a door to open. Things at work have me worried as we have combined as "one" company with our parent company. (Which was primarily just our bank.) They weren't going well and let go a LOT of their employees. I'm scared that their management will do the same with us. I'm praying that our current leadership doesn't get pressured to do things that they hear from the other side. I keep praying asking God that if I'm not to continue there til retirement (I'm 50 and have been there 18 years) that He opens the right door for me. And as a divorced mother, living alone now, and still helping my oldest's little family she has started, and my son in college, I'm living paycheck to paycheck. My house needs updates, badly. I pay my bills, help my kids, then I don't have much leftover. I'm trying to stay positive, keep the faith and trust in God that another door opens to help finance the things I need to do. I'm not asking Him to hit the easy button, I'm just asking Him for help. When life has been a struggle for the past 14 years with ER trips, emergency surgeries and lots of doc bills for my daughter, it seems like I'm treading water. I'm tired.
I know God has plans for me. I sooooooooo want to help others and bless them bc I'm a giver, but I can't get to that point yet and it just crushes me
Sorry for rambling. But to sum it up, yeah....just doors to open and a financial blessing. I'd love for my kids and I to not have to struggle when we are working so hard. I just thought maybe some extra support and prayers would help me out. Thank you