My husband died a year ago and it was unexpected and last year it was the shock of it all. Now it's reality and it's a bit harder this year in a different way. It is permanent and it is hitting harder that way. Problems arise and I have come so far. God has given me the ability to look back and see the amazing garden of flowers that were grown along the way and it is beautiful. I know He will continue to be by my side. There are those moments that just get me a bit anxious. My prayer is that I can see that sunrise that I have experienced already in those moments of unsteadiness.