Surrender is hard 😥
I've realized I need to put some space between me and my parents. It's hard. They're marvelous in many ways, and I love them deeply, but they cause incredible anxiety with petty bickering and poorly chosen words. I'm afraid as soon as I "turn my back" they will crumble and I'll lose them completely.
In the meantime, I don't feel as though I have anyone who loves me as well as they do, so loneliness is prevelant. Add that to graduating from college soon, leaving friends, and realizing my desires are hard to come by and soon I'm emotionally battered. God has made it known to me that my hope is spread too thinly among things not designed to hold it, but surrender is tough y'all. I feel beat. I need a boost.