Overwhelmed

Anonymous
The months of May and June are filled with so many great things but, they are also overwhelming months for me. I guess I am more than overwhelmed. I am struggling with depression, anxiety, sleeplessness, pain from head to toe in my body and just... I guess, unsure of how to cope. My mom passed away 4 days before Christmas, one of my twins just graduated from collage, her twins, hard working, is putting in full time hours but, has no idea where she really "fits in" in this thing called life and then my youngest will be graduating from high school in June. I am struggling with how to even begin to cope. Grieving has not really happened as of yet on behalf of my mom's passing, the girls are becoming more independent (which I am so grateful for but, scared of) and I am doing my best to keep it all together. Tears gather in my eyes, I get a "weepy face" (If that makes sense) but, I cannot truly cry! It's frustrating and concerning! Mom's memorial service (Celebration of life as they are calling it now) is Memorial day weekend (the 27th) and I am doing my best to prepare for that. Any prayers would be great. I know I serve a mighty God who is amazingly able to set me free from all that "holds me captive" but, for some reason, I just can't seem to "let it go" (now the tune of "Let it go is going through my head...") I feel so scattered and almost unable to carry out my daily activities as a full time mom and a full time worker and everything else I need to be for my family. I am married but, there's not a lot of support there. Thank you for "listening"...